Afraid

I like to pretend that I am brave
I am not
I am afraid
afraid of everything
afraid of living
afraid of who I am
afraid of being who I am
afraid of doing what I want
afraid of wanting what I want
afraid of getting what I want

I am afraid that she will not like me
I am afraid that she will like me
I am afraid that she will reject me
I am afraid that she will not reject me
I am afraid I am not capable of love
I am afraid I am capable of love
I am afraid that I am not good enough
I am afraid that I am good enough
I am afraid that I am insane
I am afraid that I am sane

I am afraid that I am different
and I know that I am

Michael Wolf Ilett